Saturday, March 28, 2009

Somewhere In The Middle

Good thing I don't care much about stats and such on my blog. But I do care about you! Thank you so much for those of you that emailed me to see where I've been. Wow, that is just amazing to me - you people really bless me more than you know.

Well, I am fine. No worries. I really did not intend to take a blogging break but my week got a little out of hand and I needed to let something give. I love blogging so much and most of the time it is a good place for me to release what is on my mind. Other times, my mind is such a jumble that anything I write would sound like another language, so I just choose not to write.

Basically, I'm in the middle of a weird situation. A situation where I am letting go of something comfortable while trying to embrace something else that is new and completely unknown. Letting go of something good for something that I hope is even better. Also, in the middle of this whole situation are a bunch of really good people and friends: some who are feeling confused and hurt and others that have great responsibility to look at a much bigger picture.

A friend sent me this verse this week to help me through a confusing day...

Isaiah 43:18-19 (NASB)
Do not call to mind the former things
Or ponder things of the past

Behold, I will do something new,
now it will spring forth,

Will you not be AWARE of it?
I will even make a roadway in the wilderness,
rivers in the desert.

Remember, my word for this year?

I decided in January to pick a word for the year instead of a new year's resolution. My prayer for the year was to make me AWARE.

My news year's resolution was instead a prayer to keep my pride in check and to help me be aware of the world around me and how it does not revolve around me.

Also, to make me acutely aware of how to act when I am in the middle of a situation. For instance, when I am making my family late to church because I've been on Facebook too long, that I be aware of how frustrated my husband must feel and how selfish I was being by doing that.

Or to be aware of how my children feel when they are the last kid waiting in carpool somewhere because I have been late. Do you see a pattern here? Being late is obviously something I struggle with.

So, that was my prayer back in January - that God make me aware in the midst of a situation.

Here I am in the midst of a big ole hairy intense complicated situation and am reminded to be aware of what I need to learn from it, where I need to grow and how I need to move forward. My hope is that I handle it all with grace and that my peace through it all is found through God. Maybe that is what he is making me aware of. Hold things of this world loosely - even things that seem good. Hold God tightly.

Well, I don't think I am going to figure it all out today. Maybe not even tomorrow. So, I'm headed to have some waffles and take the crazy puppy for a walk after that. I can figure that out. Maybe - this puppy is a whole other story!

So, how about you? What was your week like?

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Kristin said...

Seeing the word Aware in the NASB version just made me smile. Oh, how God blesses us thru His word in ways we don't even expect!

Anita said...

Hi Janel, I had been wondering where you were too, guess I should have given you a shout out.
I'm sorry for your struggle, but you are making the most of it, in prayer and reflection and I am sure you will.
Take care.

deb browning said...

missed you but remembered from a previous post that you were going to blog less. Just don't become "blogless" or I would be sad! :(

Terra said...

Sounds like the break was good for a little reflection. I will be thinking about you as you journey through what you are struggling with. Hang in there.

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