Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Unexpected Blessings

To say that I was surprised when I found out that I was pregnant would be an understatement.  Really, I don't know why I was taken back.  It's not like we were really doing anything to prevent getting pregnant.  I guess I just thought that if it didn't happen in 5 1/2 years then it most likely was not going to happen at all.  I become settled with our family of four.

For many reasons, I do not want to share my deepest feelings of those first few weeks after finding out I was pregnant.  At least not on my blog.  I was surprised - yes, we've already established that.   Fearful, absolutely.   Maybe even a little depressed at the thought of how my almost 40 year old body would go through such major changes again.

I did wonder how we would do it all.   How would we be as parents to three kids?  Financially,  I worried. The year prior had been brutal for our business and I definitely wondered about how we would survive the next.

But we have survived.  And grown.   In more ways than one.

So, now we have this little baby boy. This sweet and precious baby boy who, every time I look at him , reminds me of my most amazing God.

This God of mine who knows me better than I know myself.  My Father, the one who knows my heart.  The one who knew how blessed we'd be by this third child.

I hope that as this baby grows, I continue to look at him and realize that my Father in heaven always knows what's best for me.  I hope to trust him even when something is not my plan, to have faith even when I'm unsure and to be patient enough to sit back and wait for the unexpected blessing.

post signature


The Chubby Dove said...

Janel, he's so sweet! I can't wait to meet him IRL.

Anita said...

Oh Janel, with tears in my eyes I agree with you completely. The miracle of life is such a gift from God, how can anyone doubt him.
Wishing you a wonderful day!

Sandy said...

Isn't it amazing how God knows ALL our feelings, yet knowing what is best for us He brings about things in our lives that turn out to be a huge blessing?
Precious little boy!!!

Blog Widget by LinkWithin